“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd – The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.” – Fernando Pessoa
Whether a person is happy, successful in life or not, I believe everybody has an internal personal space that stores doubts, regrets and a longing for an other time and place. When I go to this space, I mainly feel a sense of grief over friendships lost because of my nomadic life, careers that never happened and relationships that did not turn out the way I would have liked them too. There is no trauma, nor extreme pain, but a nagging discomfort.
I don’t think it is very wise to get stuck here, it is the shadowy side of ourselves, with no getting out or finding relief. Still, sometimes I like to allow myself to let my thoughts flow freely and feel all alone, thrown back to who I am.
The images in this PDF all represent the act of being in that place, excluding oneself from reality, escaping from the every day hassles of life and people that want your attention. It may trigger feelings of recognition and maybe pain. However, there are options to escape; to dive in the pool, open the gate and run away. To not stay where you are, but go back in the light and face reality.
“Fernando Pessoa Quotes (Author Of The Book Of Disquiet)”. Goodreads.com. N.p., 2017. Web. 29 Apr. 2017.